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Name: Cindy
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Escondido
Birthday: 8/2/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Music.... Switchfoot, Green Day, Kelly Clarkson, Lifehouse, BBMak, Linkin Park, Something Like Silas, Smash Mouth, DC Talk, Tree 63, MercyMe, SonicFlood, Casting Crowns.....
Movies..... Shark Tale, Finding Nemo, Pirates of the Caribbean, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, Are We There Yet?, Peter Pan, Hook, LOTR, Harry Potter, Cinderella Story, Boogeyman, Fat Albert, Alexander (for memories ; P), Finding Neverland, Don Juan DeMarco, Haunted Mansion, Cinderella....
Expertise: MySpace... Flirting..AIM...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  red pirate girl
Member Since:
12/1/2003
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| If you don't know what that means... Well sucks for you. Ha ha ha. Yeah
right. It means Current things in my life. So I just thought I'd update
people a lil bit. So what have I been up to you wonder??? Hmm.. Lets
see...
First of all I began my sixth semester in college..
(Which is still a shock to me...) I actually passed my Ochem 1 class
and am now taking the second semester of Ochem (for those who don't
know, Ochem is said to be the hardest science class anyone is forced to
take...). I am also taking Calc 2 (again, I know, but if you wanna hear
why I am retaking it, I'll let you know...) Spanish 302 (which I am
taking with Kathy and Adam... and for some reason they both look to me
for whats going on in class!!!!) and Psychology 352 (which means a
psychology class that studies human sexuality). This semester is
already stretching me thin, but for some reason I am enjoying it...
Could it be some of the cute guys in a few of my classes  ? Could it be that I have my best friend in my spanish class again ?? I don't know why... LoL. There could be a plethora of reasons as to why I am enjoying it.
Hmm..
What next... O yeah. So this past December I renewed my Disneyland
pass. I have been a total of three times since Dec. 20th. I have had a
lot of fun everytime I've gone. I haven't been back with my bestie, but
her and I will have our day soon.  Disneyland is like OUR place, and yet, I haven't been with her since August... I feel so ashamed ...
Its alright though... One good thing is that the few times I've gone
without her I haven't heard her and her best guy friend fighting all
day (which is a big downer when you are at the Happiest Place on
Earth). I 've really liked going with the different groups of people..
Being able to experience it differently with each group. Like this past
Sunday.. I mean seriously. That was a wacky experience at Disney. I had
a lot of fun.
O yeah. I forgot. For those of you who do NOT
know, I got a new kitty in October. She's all black and her name is
Jacky. OMG she is so funny. She is one of the wierdest cats you could
ever meet. I <3 her though. She is my kitty. She sleeps with me (and
sometimes on me..). She hits her head on tables. She fetches like a
dog. It is sooo cute.
Hmm... So there is one topic many people
would probably like to know: What is Cindy's status?? I wish I could
lie and say I am taken, but alas, that would be fibbing and I cannot
lie. To tell you the truth, I am single, but I do have my sights set on
someone.
I see this person quite frequently too. I am not going to talk about
him too much, for fear he reads this and figures out it is him. But I
will tell you that I enjoy being around him and he can make me laugh
under the weirdest circumstances. He also loves to get me upset and
loves to pick on me. He seems to like my pouty face. All my friends say
I need to get over myself and just ask him what he thinks of me...
Okay. Enough on this. I think I am gonna give away too much...
Actually, I think I already have... But then again, who knows if he'll
catch on that it is him ......
Hmm..
What else is there??? I really don't know. The whole reason why I
decided to write today was because I am procrastinating on my calc
homework. I am so bad at doing my homework last minute... I don't know
why I do it, I just do.
O yeah. I am not sad for Valentine's
Day this year. I may not be going on a date with that special someone,
but my friend's and I are gonna have a lot of fun that night. We are
all going to dinner and then to go bowling. I am so excited. I can't
wait. But it might not be because of what you are thinking... He he
he..
And with this, I am going to go. I hope you all enjoyed reading.. | | |
| How Blonde are U?
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
[] You have ran into a tree/bush.
so far: 3
[] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
[] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rythem.
[] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[X] You have choked on your own spit.
so far: 5
[x] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[] You've never seen the Matrix.
[] You type only with two fingers.
[] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[] You have caught yourself drooling.
so far: 6
[x] You have fallen alseep in class
[X] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[X] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about.
[] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[] You are often told to use your "inside voice".
so far: 9
[x]You use your fingers to do simple math.
[]You have eaten a bug.
[]You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x]You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x]You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.
so far: 12
[]You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[]You break a lot of things.
[]You tilt you're head when you're confused.
[x]You have fallen out of your chair before.
[] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[x]The word "um" is used many times a day.
[]You used a calculator to add this up.
and: 14
NOW, take that number and multiply it by 4 and REPOST this as "your total in percent, blonde" | | |
| I am to nice to people. I let people walk all over me. I have feelings for someone and pass really good people up because I feel I am not worthy to be wtih them. Or that I never have a shot at being with them. All I can do is admire from afar. When is it my turn for a happy ever after? *sigh* I try my best, not being pushy, but all it gets me is more heartbreak. Last year I started to like someone and let him have his own life because he went to school far away. I still talked to him, but didn't let my feelings get in the way. What happens? The week he comes back he meets someone who I knew in high school and they are kissing within a week. This year, I meet a really sweet, funny guy, but he is happy with his relationships with someone else. Then there is Adam from church. He was a really nice guy too. I don't think that our friendship will be the same because last year we were both down and really started to flirt with eachother, and now he's scared to even hear my name. *sigh* I have the worst of luck with guys. I am too much of a pushover to go after what I want. I let other people determine the outcome of things. I really feel alone at times. Thanks for reading. And, don't worry, I'll feel better. Christmas is in less than a week. And Saturday I see my sister!
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| Its been just over three years since I got Xanga. Whats changed since then? I don't go to church anymore, I have a job and I go to a different school. Other than that, things are very similar. Guy problems galore, not feeling 100% (headache today... three years ago I kept getting sick). Yeah. So thats about it. I think my boobs are probably bigger, as well as my butt, and my stomach, but pretty much every aspect of my life is the same.
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| Is it so bad that I cannot trust exactly one person with everything that goes through my mind, everything I do, everything that happens to me? Have I been so messed up with things that I cannot trust one person wholeheartedly anymore? Or is it that secretly I want to hide things from people since they hide things from me constantly? I find things out from friends of the both of us, or they just let things slip. Could this be something I need to overcome in order for me to begin a true relationship with a guy? Learn how to trust my friends with everything, no matter how they can go and use it against me? Is it sad that the people I feel I can tell everything to are those who live the farthest away and I rarely talk to or even those I barely know? The ones I should trust the most, I don't. I have no idea why. Is it because I've been screwed over by the ones I thought I should trust that I have begun to shut myself away from my true friends? I don't know how to fix things. I want to. I want to be able to trust those closest to me. I suppose that trust is a mutual thing though. I feel that some people don't trust me with things, so I begin to trust them less. I am here, and always have been, for those friends of mine who need help. Thing is, people rarely come to me for help these days. Friendship works both ways. I know this. Trust works both ways. Without trust, a friendship is just two people who are acquittance.
Another thing: I am truly happy for all of my girls. Most are all getting guys that they are truly happy with. It is great to see that. Is it so bad that I am jealous of them? That I feel inept at being able to find someone I could truly be happy with? I know God has someone who will truly treat me more than a princess. He will love me for who I am. He will be there when I am happy, sick, sad, crying, stressed out, falling apart. He will be there to help me at my worst, while I will be there to help him too. I see how everyone gets along great with their boyfriends (or for my guy friend, their girl friends), and it just reminds me of what I do not have. I know I shouldn't be like this, but I've been hurt many times, and I just want to know when is it my chance to be happy?
I am sorry for the "poor pitiful me" blog, I just have recently begun to feel like I've been pushed off to the side with all of my friends. I find things out through a grapevine about them, or they accidentally let things slip. Also, Jen is the only one who has actually included me in anything she does. I never get anyone else who messages me or calls me to say, "Hey. I am going ____, wanna come?" Or do you wanna hang out. And I mean, not as a last resort kinda thing.
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